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For my brother-in-law: a song, a poem and a flower.

Post dedicated to my brother-in-law who passed away last Sunday, 2nd September, around 7 p.m.

I don’t really know why am I doing this…

Is it for you or for me?

I’m honouring you and you’re no longer here to read it.

How come I didn’t ever tell you I liked you?!

Me, the one who uses to do it to everybody quite often…

(Maybe cause Sis was so jealous…)

In fact we didn’t know each other that much.

Did we meet once a year? Twice a year?

But I’ve always trusted you and thought you’re a good man.

Patient, polite, tender, generous, a good soul.

Maybe too good.

And now you’re gone and it is still hard to believe.

Everything was too damn quick!!!

Did you forget about yourself?

Did you put others always in the first place?

Did you somehow feel this all stuff was about to happen?

(Sis told me about strange, premonitory dreams you were having)

Did you suffer? 

How was it during your coma?

Did you feel people around you?

Did you feel Sis’s hand on yours? Did you notice how she hid her tears?

You’re gone and, once again, there’s a huge space no one can fill in.

(No one is replaceable; at least souls like yours)

Sis still feels your presence at home. 

But she isn’t aware of what happened. She floats.

She lives a bad dream driven into a nightmare all of a sudden..

The psycho side of our family started to act

and I’ve declared war… 

She needs help, care and protection

and you know that.

She needs a friendly shoulder,

not a dictator for a brother to command her life.

 

I thank you!

Mostly for being the kind of man you were.

Thank you for treating Mum and Dad so respectfully. 

(Dad didn’t deserve it, however)

Thanks for loving my sister so unconditionally,

for making her happy,

and for giving her the best times of her life.

The two of you, always together, hand in hand, is a memory I’m going to keep.

Life’s unfair, I know. It only lasted 4 1/2 years.

Life sucks!

Thank you for your smile. I’ll never forget it.

Rest in peace. I know you will.

With love and gratitude,

C.

For you. Sweet, simple flowers, just like you.

 
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Posted by on 8 de September de 2012 in gratitude, homenagem, in memoriam

 

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Kirby Dick

EL DOCUMENTALISTA QUE NO LES TEME A LOS PODEROSOS

http://www.revistaarcadia.com/cine/articulo/el-documentalista-no-teme-poderosos/28962

My own viewpoint:

Brave you are, indeed!
Crazy must you be, though.
You need both guts and craziness to go along with all this.
‘Cause you’re totally, entirely aware of who and what you’re dealing with.
Your life is in danger, you’re in danger.
But courage and truth are greater than yourself.
Besides… whose life is not in danger?
Once we’re alive, our life is menaced. So it is.
There are risks some follow. Others don’t.
For the good and for the bad.
Thank you for belonging to the good ones…
Thank you for being this crazy and this fearful!
Thank you!
Kirby Dick…
 
 

Kirby Dick

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Love from
 
Celeste Santos
 
 
 
 

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‘A message’ to my dear blog followers

 I dedicate this post of mine to all my blog followers. Once in a while it’s time you thanked people for being, simply for being. I may sound a bit hyperbolic or rather romantic. I’m all that, yes, among other things. But being thankful has nothing to do with romanticism or exaggerating feelings.

I’ve learnt from my Mum to be thankful: to God and to those who do us some good and help us to live better and to feel happier in this path of life. I do not usually thank God, I must confess. And I kind of ‘envy’ Mum for that. A little faith in something ‘above all’ would certainly help me a lot throughout hard times and GOOD ones- God wouldn’t certainly like to be handled as “blackmail”, nor would like to be remembered of only in the darkest of days, being called for as if he was 911 / 112 over here), but I simply can’t do it. 

It’s part of me to tell people, close people around, what they mean to me and how much I love them. Furthermore I’ve learnt to do it whenever I feel like doing it, spontaneously, also to others who are not that close, but who(m) I value, too. One never knows when tomorrow is (not) too late for that. 

And you people, in a way anonymous, in a way virtual, have shown to be a lot more PEOPLE than tons of others I do know ‘in flesh’ and to whom I have been talking to for ages! You come by, read my posts, comment on them when you have time or wish to do so, leave a positive thinking a message, a simple wink and…help me living. Better. Happier. You UNDERSTAND me and through your honest critics I get to know me a lot more. This is a way of self-improvement, too. 

Now…highly important!!!!

You people, dear fe(o)llow  bloggers, have been helping me to love you. In a way, you’re already part of me. In a way you’re family or even beyond blood family boundaries, not always necessarily the best ones, nor the ones we’ve dreamt of. You belong to the family we choose for ourselves.

I’m familiar with Ion Vincent Danu‘s art, writing, inner conflicts, love and dis-love for van Gogh, his ‘hero’ of almost a life(…),  with Barb‘s ideas, writing and apparently serious personality (…), with Jessica Accardi‘s posts and sensitivity (…), with ‘thebrightoldoak”s poetry,  rather foreign language good knowledge (…), with Daniel Kons young art, heart and soul, but rather mature and critical world view (…), with Hélio do Couto´s young spirit at 74, a non-educated, kind and tender Brazilian man trying so hard to get into touch with the outside world (‘Internet betrays me all the rime’, he says, kidding, once he writes as he speaks, and it’s hard on him to be fast enough) trying so hard to find relatives back in the grandpa’s homeland (Portugal, my home country)!), and (forgive me those who I do not mention personally, but who I’m getting to know as time goes by)…  all this simply, entirely and gratefully fills and fulfils a great part of my life. The sharing part, the sharing of writing, of ideas, feelings, emotions, opinions (…), of being read, of having feedbacks.

I can not say but thanks. I wrote for years in my mother tongue and only in it. And my dear Portuguese attracted no one. Were (are) all Portuguese bloggers asleep?! (…) In a country that calls itself “the land of poets”, it occurs to me ‘we’ are only lovers of the dead ones. And once dead even the ‘poorest’ of poets become the best. For a while. Then we get back again to the “old references”, or we “worship” those who come out of nowhere in the middle of a storm as a revolution, but even those are politically and carefully picked up and remain untouchable icons, are taught at school with the wind of change, or with the wind of unchange and… who dares who propose others?

Probably ’cause I posted mostly poetry, my soul’s mirror, no one noticed my blog. Maybe it was my fault: I’m far too demanding out of … I’d better not conclude my thought! well, no one really has to like my writing nor my mental diarrhea.

Till the day Ion Vincent Danu ‘discovered me’. Out of nowhere, there he was, with an astonishing, lovely comment, a Canadian painter of Romanian roots who found out on “wordpress” something written in a language similar to his mother tongue. And he got the gist of it! How come?, I thought. And so it seems to be: both languages have lots of similarities. ‘Cousins, they are’, says Danu. 

I thank the English language as well! The one I’m in love with since the very “green years” of my childhood when  it came to me through music and through the lyrics I repeated, or gave a try, inventing a lot… Oh gosh! The words I made up… so many words for my “by-that-time-English language-dictionary”! Apparently It seems to have worked.

Leave you all this message, together with music to warm, feed and cheer up your souls. I couldn’t find a more appropriate one “to close my post with a golden key.”

Coldplay

 

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